Yes, I do realise it’s probably a bit late in the day to be writing an Autumn Bucket List and at the speed we’re going it’ll be time to write my New Year Goals, but what the heck, there’s still time left to have some fun, isn’t there?
You may have seen on Twitter that I was without Internet for about a week, thanks to a couple of different departments at Virgin not acknowledging where the fault was. Hopefully that’s all fixed now, but boy did I miss not having the internet. Not just for social media but to type up these posts and NO NETFLIX!! Note to self, save up and buy a lap top so I can sit in a cafe using their WiFi and work on my blog, or at least pretending to be while actually secretly watching my favourite series and sipping my fifth pumpkin spiced latte!
On another not so good note, I’ve not been feeling my usual happy self, a mixture of hormones being all over the place, having a rotten cold that has knocked me for six and a general feeling of where am I bloomin well going with my life. I know, bad combination! I came so close to giving up blogging, numbers were getting in the way, the comparison thing kicked in (which it’s never done before by the way!) and worrying too much that I was an extremely tiny fish in a very big ocean. I’m sure everyone’s had these thoughts at some point but I felt totally alone, like I my printed words were floating around in a big white room, with no doors or windows and no one could see them. It had absolutely nothing to do with being sent free stuff or being invited to events because I know I’ll never be able to attend them. It was more a question of why? Why am I even bothering to sit here every week stressing over schedules, stats, SEO, titles and photos if I can’t take my blog anywhere (told you I was hormonal). Shutting myself away in my room was definitely not the answer to all my problems, although it felt good at the time.
Then I joined in The Girl Gang chat on the Monday as I do every week and the topic was happiness and self care. I must have unintentionally come across as feeling down by the answers I gave because afterwards I had so many people message me to ask if I was OK and it honestly made me cry. Two things were said to me that made me snap out of the gloomy place I was in: “Numbers don’t define you” and “Remember why you blog.”
I started reading my old blog posts to remember why I actually started in the first place, OK so I won’t win journalist of the year as they were pretty basic, but who cares, I flippin loved them! I scrolled through old photos on my Instagram and Facebook when I wasn’t worrying about followers, likes or flatlays, and do you know what, they made me feel so happy. Of course I care when someone is kind enough to take time out of their busy day and leave a lovely comment or like a photo I’ve spent time on, don’t get me wrong, but as someone said “Numbers don’t define you.” After a few more tears, tantrums and talking to other bloggers who managed to talk some sense into me (plus plenty of chocolate) I started to fall back in love with Rosie Loves Life. I think if I hadn’t sorted myself out Adrian would have permanently moved into the shed with his crash helmet on to avoid the cups beings thrown in temper!
So I shall post what I enjoy posting about, whether that’s on my blog or social media, I know I can’t please everyone and there’s no point in even trying. Of course, if anyone does like what I’ve done please let me know as it really does make my day. I also want to say a big thank you to Holly, Sarah, Fiona and Amie for letting me moan away and to Stacey for the cutest happy mail she sent me through the post.
In other news, I have been invited to a Halloween party and in case you’re new to my blog I had a fear of masks, mainly clowns and balaclavas. I say “had” as I’ve been working with a counsellor for a while now to find out the root of the problem and to try and help me overcome my fear. I’m pretty bloody anxious about going but I’ve missed out on so many things over the years when it comes to celebrating Halloween so I’m determined to get there. It’s only a small party with a few of my friends who have also gone through the same thing, it won’t be anything too adventurous but even so, for me it’s a huge deal. I’ll keep you all updated!
Anyway onto my Autumn bucket list and all the things I want to get done before the season has been and gone and I’m sat here writing out Christmas cards instead of a blog post.
- Sort out my Halloween costume
- Go on a long woodland walk, collect leaves and conkers
- Be brave and purchase a very bold lip colour
- Make pumpkin or cinnamon muffins
- Buy a pumpkin to make a lantern
- make an Autumn soup
- Decorate the house for Autumn/Halloween
- Visit an Autumn festival
- Have a mini picnic in the park
- Finish sorting out my Autumn/Winter clothes that are in the loft, what’s to keep and what’s to give away
- Celebrate Adrian’s birthday (it’s 24th November in case I forget)
- Watch a sunset and take photos
- Watch Autumn/Halloween movies
- Do a DIY Autumn craft
- Dedicate two pages to Autumn in my scrapbook
I don’t actually have very long to get some of these done so I’d better stop talking and get my backside in gear. It’s also coming up to my two year blog anniversary, I can’t believe where the time has gone, thank you to everyone who has supported me along the way. For now I’ll leave you in peace.
Let me know if you have things you want to get done before the Christmas festivities begin.